Hey love, ❤️
Having been home to Greenland has given me so much to think about and feel.
Having felt caught between two (or more) cultures have definitely added to the available limiting beliefs, and today (not literally today, but in this time of my life), at 44 years, I’ve come to a point where I get to let go of a lot of them.
And the thing about letting go of limiting beliefs, is that the intellect understands them first, and then my body and nervous system needs to follow suit, and that is quite a frustrating thing to have to be patient about.
You probably know the feeling - having figured out that something you have wanted to be able to do for a long time, you could just do, but have been self sabotaging up until now - and then need to unlearn the self sabotage. *sigh*
Well - I believe one of the biggest things I have self sabotaged, is basically my existence. Due to cultural and language, I have self censored, I have been hiding myself, made myself small, erased my voice, and people pleased out the wazoo - because my belief was that I needed to be a certain way to belong - and since I never was, I just stepped back.
Imagine how that has affected my social life, my relationships, my career, and just my general being in the world.
So now I have given myself fully permission to just be me, and express myself fully - and I am getting better and better at it - yet, my nervous system still needs safety and reassurance constantly, so it’s an on-going practice. A worthy one, definitely.
The distilled insight
My self sabotage has been believing that other people’s opinions, thoughts, feelings, and what-not were more important than my own, because I felt like I couldn’t belong.
Being caught between two cultures - or two worldviews - or two opposing mindsets, can freeze the heck out of you.
But at 44 (and I do hope you realise this at an earlier age), I actually and factually get to decide for myself, what I want to believe, and act on.
Culture, mindset, stories, behaviours, traditions, etc. You are just as big a part of them as they are of you - and you are what everything goes through.
Your life experience is the culmination of everyone before you - and you get to affect what comes next.
It’s quite a magical realisation, if you’ve ever been an identity-less people pleaser. What a relief to actually be able to decide what you want to express, and which direction you want to go, eh?
What's happening in my world
I have changed things up a bit again, but nothing major.
The community I called Worthy & Rising - Biz Rebels is now “The Feel Good Rebel Academy”, and is my flagship community-membership.
If you are already inside, you’re one of the lucky founding members, who get to stay as you are - because it is now a paid membership, at €37 month.
Inside I’m keeping the Full Moon Reflection Sessions - although I am still contemplating whether I should change it to a “end of the month” or “start of the month” reflection session - Let me get back to you on that, when I’ve fully decided - if you have thoughts, let me know. :)
You can also find the previous workshops, and a foundational course on the mindset I have around “staying” - moving through discomfort and going for what you want, plus a couple of guided experiences - some challenges around visibility and receiving.
I will be adding courses and experiences, that will also be sold in my web shop - so the members will get access to to most of the things I create - as an ever growing archive of distilled insights and goodies.
Honouring my own way of being in the world, with creative cycles and rest cycles, it is something I have committed to build over time, and grow at it’s own pace.
And this is basically part of the work as well - to find a way to build a business that fits your life, rather than burning out trying to fit into someone else’s structure.
Right - before writing a whole novel, I am glad to be back in your inbox - I hope you are well.
Life is meant to be lived, and deliciously so, right. ;)
Let me know if any of this resonates - you can reply directly to this email, if you want.
Lots of love and rebellious joy,
Parnuuna ✨❤️